October 30th 2020
Hi everyone, remember me? 🙂
It’s been well over two months since I wrote anything on here and I’m truly sorry that I have been MIA. I decided that I needed to look after my mental health, which has taken a major kicking during the third last 3 months or so. Lots of different reasons why, which is why I will write about my experiences on other blogs to explain. But I’m writing this one to spread some much needed joy with you all! Remember my pandemic pregnancy? Well, here I talk about my pandemic baby!
My Beautiful pandemic baby was definitely worth it!
I’m over the moon to let you all know that I gave birth, via semi-elective caesarean on the 1st October 2020 to my second daughter whom we have named Veronica Alana Browne… But we’ll be calling her Ronnie. She came 18 days early, via semi elective c section and it was yet again, another worrying and stressful experience (which you can read about in my Pregnancy During a Pandemic, My Story blog) but all the staff at Ysbyty Glan Clwyd were amazing, as they were at every visit.
Why we chose Veronica Alana…
I had always half joked that I’d loved to call any daughter I have Veronica and shorten it to Ronnie after my dad…. We both decided the morning after my dad passed away in July that we thought it would be a great name for our second daughter. We also decided that we would call her Alana after Phill’s late father Alan, who passed away 8 years ago. Someone who I never had the pleasure to meet personally, but have heard many stories and know that we would have got on like a house on fire for sure. Although both biological Grandfathers are no longer with us, we wanted to make sure they would always be a part of our girls lives.
Will my family love it or hate it?
I was so worried when I facetimed my family after having Ronnie. Would they like the name? Would they hate it? Would they think is was tacky and in bad taste? Was it too soon after dads passing? How would my mum feel about calling her new granddaughter by the same name as her husband? (Although, my mum always called our dad ‘Ron’, not Ronnie… But you get where I’m coming from).
So as soon me and Ronnie were moved back to the maternity ward I called them. Nervously. As soon as I told them her name they cried. Especially my mum!! She later messaged me to reassure me that she was so honoured that she was named after her Taidi (which is Welsh for Grandfather) and that dad would have been so proud. Honestly, having my mums approval meant the world to me.
Naming your child is such a huge responsibility!!
Being named after loved ones, relatives or even celebrities has been going on for years and years. Why? Because we like to honour those that have passed, honour and show respect for the living and let them know that they have been a positive influence on your life… So much so, that you have called your child after them! What an honour!! I like it when there is a story behind a name, I’m so glad my daughters have theirs.
I decided to give Ffion the same middle name as myself. Which is Mair (which is Welsh for Mary) and is the name of my Naini (which is Welsh for Grandmother… You really are getting a Welsh lesson on todays post hey? ha!).
For as long as Ronnie is around, she will talk about her Grandpa and Taidi as when asked about her name she will say “I was named after my Grandfathers, who died before I was born”. Everyone who has asked has honestly replied with “That’s a beautiful name with a beautiful meaning”… It makes me swell with pride and gives me the reassurance that we have provided her with a name that she will hopefully be proud of.
We have home videos of them both that we will show the girls annually and keep their memories alive, as much as we can.
Living in a world without dad is so sad..
I just can’t get my head around the fact that my dad isn’t here anymore. I miss him so much. He would be in his element with having a new born in the family I’m sure (Although, he would have liked more boys in the mix… There are a LOT of girls in my family and he often felt outnumbered, as does Phill with 4 daughters). Like Phill suggested one morning, when I was having a bad time dealing with the grief: “Think of him as on a long holiday, where there is no signal and he can’t be contacted for a while”.
It’s worked so far, so I’d definitely recommend for anyone in a similar situation. Saying that, I do plan on taking Ronnie up to his grave soon… I’m just not ‘there’ yet. I will be soon I’m sure. There’s no rush. Like he would say “It’s not like I’m going anywhere” haha… I know where I get my dark humour from, that’s for sure.
How’s Ffion dealing with it all?
Ronnie is 4 weeks old now and it feels like she has always been a part of our family. Ffion has been amazing and is so caring towards her little sister and even the crying doesn’t seem to bother her. I’m a mum of two girls ladies and gentleman! TWO!! Please let Ronnie take after Phill’s calm temperament and not mine. Ffion is a strong willed, independent young lady which I love but 1 of those is enough… I’m no Mystic Meg, but I can already see into my future and the teenage years are going to be a Rollercoaster, that’s a sure bet!
I’m back on track now and feeling more like myself than I have done in months! So I will be uploading more on here, as there is lots to talk about!
Till then, take care everyone and I hope these lock downs aren’t getting you down too much.
Lots of Love xxx
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